Glimmers and shadows

 I have to remember to count the good as well as the bad. I have to build on the good and resist the bad.

I had close to a breakdown yesterday.

I went to the dentist- They take my blood pressure with the wrist cuff, and it is always high. It was high this time too, so high that they took it again and it was lower but still high. 

When I go to my regular doctor, she doesn't get worried, she says the wrist cuffs are inaccurate and so are the arm cuffs, in her opinion. She takes my blood pressure with her wrist watch and fingers after I calm down, and then it's good.

I may need to schedule an appointment with her though to check in.

That put me in a mood, though, so I didn't get as much done as I wanted and sort of crashed on my bed for a while. 

Then I had a long phone call from my cousin, with challenging news from her end of the world. Her granddaughter's adoption is likely to fall through, and I think my cousin was hoping I would volunteer to adopt the child. 

I cannot. I simply cannot. 

Then I saw numerous postings about Nazis- actual Nazis- protesting outside a production of Diary of Anne Frank only a few communities away from me.

Nazis.

Shift to noting some good.

My brother, his wife, my sister, her sons and one of their wives all came over to my house on Sunday and moved a lot of the big stuff out of my house so that I can sell or donate or give it away. This is stuff that I simply couldn't move myself: two heavy couches, a ping pong table, heavy oak end tables. It feels like progress.

They also took various items that they could use and enjoy, which also lightens the load.

On another day, moving furniture around, I had to disassemble my internet/tv set up- and I reassembled it again and it all works!

I found a remote control that has been missing for a year.

I have friends coming this afternoon to help with some of the cleaning/ packing.

I've made progress in grading my students' work and should be caught up tonight.

Yesterday, I found out it was National Sundae Day in time to have a sundae.